i know its been a reallly long time since anybody has really heard from me, and i do apologize for this, but I've just taken a new look on life that i sorely needed.

Admittedly, i wrote poetry and the like because I was depressed, and needed and outlet for my frustrations and some recognition from and outside source.

You all have been very good to me here, and i love you all.

But I'm really not angry or feeling unloved or sad anymore, and I dont feel the same negative creative energies anymore. However, i look back at some of my writing, and while a good deal of it is somewhat crappish emo bullock, there are some pieces that I am proud to have written. And I aim to keep on writing, but in a more light style that emphasizes how happy I am now.

I dont know how well liked it will be, as I am likely rusty in the linguistic arts. But still, I want to try

Wish me luck, and I look forward to re-instating myself into the dA community

On a more personal note, Ive turned 16, and got a *drumroll please* NISSAN CUBE!!!
Oh how I loves me my car!
I aim to get a job soon in my local bookstore, I am currently in an internal war between Borders and Barnes and Noble.
decisions decisions 0.0

I have a wonderful Boyfriend who is not clingy *hallelujah* and is tall *yay* and has a semi-muscley body!!!
It indeed has been a good year.

so here are the rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

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1.) I like to give stuff away to people.
2.) I am happy when my friends are happy. Same goes for every other emotion.
3.) I am obsessed with 80's everything: music, movies, people, styles.
4.) I can contact juggle really, really well. And am pretty much one out of maybe 500 people who can still do it left in the world.
5.) I love the spotlight, but am a rather private person.
6.) I dont cry like a normal person, I just laugh hysterically while liquid comes out my eyes.
7.) My iris's go from my normal maroonish brown to a more reddish color when im stressed or am feeling a strong emotion.
8.) I am really liberal, and have no real democratic party. Im ashamed that gay marriage is not legal in my state.

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I tag...

IN 2008 I:
[] stayed single
[x] got kissed
[x] kissed someone new (new friends count?)
[] made out
[] made out in a car (among other places )

[] kissed in the snow
[] kissed in the rain
[] fell in love
[] fell in love with a fool
[] had my heart broken

[x] broke someone else's heart
[x] had a stalker
[] lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[x] questioned my sexual orientation

[] came out of my closet.
[] got pregnant
[] had an abortion
[] got married
[] had a divorce

[] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[x] did something I regret
[] lost my true love
[x] lost faith in love for awhile

[] kissed under mistletoe
[] got a job
[] got a promotion
[] changed jobs
[] lost my job

[] quit my job
[] dated a co-worker
[] dated my boss
[] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[] got fired from my job

[] got straight A's
[x] almost got straight A's
[] failed a class
[] cut class
[] skipped school

[x] did something I was proud of
[x] proved myself an idiot
[x] embarrassed myself in front of the class
[] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] painted a picture
[x] wrote a poem
[x] ran a mile
[x] listened to music I couldn't stand
[x] double dipped
[x] skinny dipped
[x] went to a sleepover
[] went to camp
[] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried

[] laughed till I peed my pants
[] flirted shamelessly
[] visited a foreign country
[] visited a foreign state
[] cooked a disastrous meal

[x] lost something important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself
[] tried to gain weight
[] dyed my hair

[] came close to losing my life...
[] someone close to me died
[x] went to a wild party
[] got arrested
[x] read a great book(s)

[x] saw a great movie
[] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[x] saw a favorite band live
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new

[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[x] snuck out
[] got in trouble with police

[] kissed in a pool
[] kissed under the stars
[x] did an illegal drug
[x] went to a party
[x] had the time of your life

[x] danced
[] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool (beach)

[x] made a snowman
[x] went snowboarding
[x] went sledding
[x] slept in past 1pm
[x] held someone's hand
[x] held someone's hand that you care about
[] told someone you like them as more than a friend (trying to find the nerve)
[x] gone on vacation
[x] gone on vacation with a friend
[] driven a car

[] played strip poker
[] danced in the rain
[x] seen someone get in a car accident
[] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe

[x] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[x] got hit by car(was clipped, no big. Bujt the bastard didnt stop )
[] sent someone to the hospital
[] got a new pet (temporarily. My dad's cat)
[x] enjoyed this year overall (it was alright)

I have commented a lot recently in whitedog1's comic strip edward in a nutshell about people who want to hear about my family, and seem to want to hear stories about them and things we've done.
So what do you think?
IM not a fantastic artist, but i might so a comic strip about stuff my family does when we are bored or weird.
Yes or no?

Okay. Here is a treat. All this music I am about to show you is from this movie only playing in certain theatres. I, luckily live near one. This mvie is praised as an instant cult classic, and is comparitive to the rocky horror picture show.
Here is the link to the preview. The movie is called...
Repo!The Genetic Opera.
[link]

Here is a link to the music.
[link]

phew. Now comes the hard part. Picking out the best songs for you to check out.

Here is the list:

1.)Legal assasin
2.)Zydrate Anatomy
3.)Chase the morning
4.)We started this op'ra sh*t
5.)Needle through a bug
6.)Let the monster rise
7.)I didn't know I'd love you so much.

Numbers 1 and 4 are in the trailer
number 2 5 and 6 are personally satisfying to hear.
number 3 and 7 are the most lovey and chill to hear

I adore them all. The others are alright.

Numbers 2 and 5 feature my favorite male character, the graverobber.